TRICKS OF EGO IN DHARMA

When I am in ego, then it is as you say I will be ruled by my defence mechanisms, but as "I AM" at this time; I am in the truth and awareness mode, therefore that is not saying I cannot be caught out on other days as you are, it just gets less the more I practice self awareness.....lol

Hope you enjoyed your walk in the Sun :O)

I was only in prison for a short time, but in isolation for 6 months, if you type into google "Freedom" By Ozay Rinpoche you will get a free E-book copy.

You may know many many things intellectually, as many do, all you have to do is go look around and you will see there are so many who know, there are so many scholars of the truth, but there are few who know the "TRUE EXPERIENCE Of TRUTH"

The proof of this is the inability to master the lower nature of self in such discourses as we are now in ie anger jealousy, slyness, evil intent, arrogance, pride, self importance, self centredness lack of friendship, lack of love for one another, what you will see is that most are "MASTERED" not the "MASTER" as their words will claim, they have no idea how to be master of the lower nature, they preach they are masters, but when put to the test they easily fall the truth speaks not in words but in action and actios speak more about where you stand than your words will ever say, but only to those who have mastered that lower self.

Just keep practising this method and you will become more aware of this truth, there will be no need to believe me, rather you will know this truth.

When I am not aware of my ego, this is what happens usually:

Something makes me feel different it is not nice anymore I become uncomfortable inside, something makes me unhappy, or ill at ease, there is tension where there was relaxation and softness in my body and mind something ends my bliss, something disturbs, or even hurts emotions may arise.

Because I am used to better states of being than this, and now a natural occurrence happens inside of me; A desire arises to find an answer to end my discomfort inside, we are all pleasure seeking, and this is the outcome of many years of pleasure seeking, trial and error with one pleasure and then another until you have come to realise the final pleasure seeking lies not outside but inside the self, and you have created much discomfort by pleasure seeking material thing ego polishing etc, naturally you come back to yourself and then inside yourself to answer all sufferings you will see it was just one key you needed so simple.

When this happens because I am more used to a state of peace, there is a quick comparison, with now and before when it was goood, I recognise this is not good, it is then I remember myself and steer my boat back to peacefulness with awareness of the whole process and where I went wrong, total honesty has to be used in every way not denial, but rather acceptance, letting go understanding and that is how I become aware of my cunning ego.

The more I understand of my own ego the more I can understand your ego, and others egos and all its tricks, this is to be expected if I am truly realised.

As you may have already observed, it may seem that I always have the upper edge all the time in such debates when ego is in play, that is because I know its full nature by being totally aware and when not able to be this; the discomfort created of blind ego will motivate and move me to take action and get right again, that is I will kill my ego, or die to it so that truth is more easily seen by me.

And when you react as you have we can see where your action comes from truth or ego, because we have freed ourselves by killing our own ego to see you clearly.

If you can point out where we are wrong then, the truth will out weigh our ignorance and truth cannot be denied when it is seen, if you see and bring it forward it cannot be denied except for one who runs away, these are egoistcal tactics.

I stand and wait for your explanation or is it just another poor attempt for your ego to regain ground again there is possibility we are not seeing, but it is not likely the most likely thing as can be clearly seen is you are trapped within your defence mechanisms, until what you speak of can be clearly pointed out then it lies with you to find your own inner truth, in Yourself, or in Bianca, or